You know, for the past few weeks, I’ve been thinking hard about what’s in store for me say 5 years down the road? Why in the world am I studying what I’m going to study? Finance? Yes, it looks interesting, but really? Why do we work? Money? If you’ve been around me recently you’d know what I mean. Why did eve eat the forbidden fruit?? It’s a sadistic, demoralizing thought that we do our job, so that we earn the money to pay others to do their job… Vicious cycle, I’d say..
And then on the way home on the bus just, I was listening to ‘Beautiful Seed’ (Corrinne May), which I haven’t in a while now.. You know, I almost forgot how she used to be such an inspiration to me, using her gifts and talents in an area so close to my heart to bless others..
You can be a witness, you can be a prophet
You can make the whole world believe
Break the strongest fortress, change the way the world thinks
You can build a bridge where foes can meet
Hope for the future, in the tiniest whisper
Dreams are what we make them to be
There is hope in every heartbeat
You’re a beautiful seed
I couldn’t help but refer myself to this verse:
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made…
-Ps 139:14a
How can something made with such respect be of no purpose? Each one of us is significant, called to do something… no matter how small we think we are, or how short a life we’ve lived. Every small thing makes a big difference… My little nephew of 18 mths passed away this week by the way, even that short period of life on earth makes a world of difference…
Just one song of hers, speaks that simple truth of God and as it is shared with all her listeners, people’s hearts are softened, they receive some sorta realisation… isn’t that so cool? I can’t think of any other word!!! You know?
Then I’m reminded of how I’ve always wanted to do one thing: Using music to bless others, make a difference in lives! If you know me, I’ve a major problem expressing myself through words (with my major lack of vocab)… One of the only ways I could do that better is when there’s the piano next to me, wishing that everybody would just stop and listen, literally, to what I wanna say… It’s so much easier…
And so, yes! I rmber! That’s what I really really want to do! Even if it’s just gonna be like my on-the-side small job in future! Just that the world’s getting in the way, the attraction of money, the idea that music in s’pore is hopeless… All these things have caused me to forget what I’ve always felt for..We all know this.. even in the Bible, music is used to minister! (1 Chron 6:32) I believe, for myself, it’s so much more than what I’m doing now- serving in Philotheos… Why should anyone suppress what their hopes (or calling if I may suggest) were, just because the world’s situation tells them not to? Doesn’t make any sense! Surely, whatever burden God’s placed in your heart, there’s hope of it being realised!Simply cos our hope is in God and not in the world! I’m trying not to be cliche, but I can’t help it!!! :S There is hope in every heartbeat…
It’s really been a long long while since I’ve listened to her music or thinking about pursuing music in some way or another… But I just got home and then in my email, [Corrine May Newsletter] came (how rare anyway!) and she had a link to a recent performance of ‘Beautiful Seed’ on YouTube… I was like… whoa man.. how apt… coincidence?
Also, I am reminded today (!) that ‘Creative Communication’ is a spiritual gift: the divine enablement to use the arts to communicate God’s truth… to captivate people and cause them to consider Christ’s message…
I’m not saying that’s my gift, but isn’t that wonderful? To me, at least! Yeah! Sometimes when I’m all alone by the piano, occasionally singing along, I realise, YEA! If God were to bless me in such a manner, how I really really want to use it to bless others, impact others, make a difference!! Could I?
