Paul’s Chains Advance the Gospel
21For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. 22If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labor for me. Yet what shall I choose? I do not know! 23I am torn between the two: I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far; 24but it is more necessary for you that I remain in the body. 25Convinced of this, I know that I will remain, and I will continue with all of you for your progress and joy in the faith, 26so that through my being with you again your joy in Christ Jesus will overflow on account of me. (Philippians, NIV)

Have you ever had these thoughts, or perhaps struggles, like Paul? I have, recently.. Being ‘torn’ between the above two: die, leave this earthly place, be with Christ, communing with,worshipping, and enjoying Him for eternity, or live, ‘remain in the body’ doing the ‘work of an evangelist, [discharging] all the duties of your ministry’ (2 Tim 4:5, NIV) that you’ve supposedly been called to do.

The former is by far better; we were created for that ultimate purpose, when we are most satisfied, and God is most glorified. (Forgive me! I’ve been reading John Piper about Christian Hedonism! haha) The latter is no less important; we were created for that penultimate purpose!

Within the last couple of weeks, I’ve had brief conversations about this with at least 2 people about this… Isn’t it so much better if I could just leave this forsaken place, go to a place of eternity? Seriously, Mag must be crazy… Maybe, it’s just one of those random, sian, ‘what if’ kind of mood… But I’m comforted that since even Paul had those thoughts, I’m not that crazy ahah..

I was listening to this song that day and I just suddenly thoguht of these things ahah!

Finally Home, Mercyme

I’m gonna wrap my arms around my daddy’s neck
And tell him that i’ve missed him
And tell him all about the man that i became
And hope that it pleased him
There’s so much i want to say
There’s so much I want you to know

When I finally make it home
When I finally make it home

Then i’ll gaze upon the throne of the king
Frozen in my steps
And all the questions that i swore i would ask
Words just won’t come yet
So amazed at what i’ve seen
So much more than this old mind can hold

And the sweetest sound my ears have yet to hear
Voices of the angels

But you know, and I know, essentially that God has his greater purposes right? We shall remain here, as we are called according to His purpose.. we know not what that is, but we shall keep our eyes fixed on eternity - the the goal and the prize - as we walk on this guilty sod…:S

You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised. (Heb 10:36, NIV)

Haha.. okay… let’s get on with the life, I guess!